Learning to say NO

Not the NO you automatically assume. Not talking about saying no to the men fiasco… although right now I would definitely say YES no questions asked! But that’s a topic for another time… 

What I am talking about here is saying NO to food!!! Food is simply taking over my life these days. Hungry or not all I do is eat. You would assume I am an obese person with the amount of food I consume but thankfully I was given a metabolism that is as speedy as ever. That being said, there still should be a limit. These calories will catch up soon enough in fact they have slowly begun to do so. Even though I pride myself for being voluptuous with my ghetto booty, I am not looking to exceed what I have today. So now comes my next challenge: How do I say NO to yummy goodness? Let me just say, when I talk about food I don’t mean healthy veggies… no green in sight on my plate. I am talking about greasy, oily, salty deliciousness and then once I have downed all the saltiness I must end with deserts… not the fruity non-sense, but sweet chocolates, cookies and cakes with portions to suit a football team (children’s football team-let’s not exaggerate!!).

Not only that but the worse part is that I am so NOT busy that that automatically leads to the need to entertaining myself through the consumption of food!! Sitting at work with not much to do = food! Watching TV on the couch = food! Traffic on the way to anywhere = food!  Getting to bed but can’t quite fall asleep yet = food! Walking around the apartment staring at the walls = food! Every activity in my day = FOOD!!! What to do?! I joined a gym… have yet to go… chances are I’ll eat on my way there and as soon as I get out of there! I am determined to as Tim Gunn says “make it work”. Let’s just hope my determination overpowers my obsession with food before the obese person inside of me eats me too! No to food begins now (Thankfully I just had a huge piece of left-over birthday cake and cookies!!) NOW –> GO!

Just do it!

Carpe Diem: live your  life to the fullest with no regret, live every day as if it were your last, the future is promised to no one, appreciate today as tomorrow may never come…

Ever since I worked on the Robert Herrick poem “To the Virgins, to make much of Time” back in college, I fell in love with the message, Carpe Diem. Don’t sit back and let life pass you by, live all your days to the fullest, enjoy to the high and lows and push to create more, take risks, be bold, don’t fear failure, explore, experience and let go. Although most days I don’t live by the saying I have been trying to push myself to overcome fear and take advantage of the life I was given. As a stamp of approval, I went to get tattooed the saying… as a symbol of power, as a wake up call to myself from myself to be free and explore opportunities. Since although some decisions not the best, I have been exploring, pushing myself and trying (being the key work) to let go and attempt the no regret lifestyle.

Given that every day is pretty routine, I created my very own little bucket list. These few list items are places, obstacles, things I have always wanted to do and now with the world at my fingertips, I will check off one item at a time!

My bucket list:

1. Sail around the world
2. Visit the Amazon rainforest
3. Ride a gondola in Venice, Italy
4. Go Zorbing in New Zealand
5. Hang from Toronto’s CN Tower
6. Partake in a Japanese tea ceremony
7. Set foot on all 7 continents
8. Watch the ball drop for New Years in New York city
9. Watch the changing of the guards at Buckingham palace
10. Volunteer in a third world country
11. Watch turtles hatch and run to the ocean
12. Go whale watching
13. Ride an elephant
14. Milk a cow
15. Jump off a high cliff into deep water
16. Go sky diving
17. Go fire walking
18. See an Olympic game
19. Follow U2 on their World Tour
20. Go to a superbowl
21. Ride in a hot air balloon
22. Learn to surf
23. Make a stained glass piece
24. Make my own wine
25. Solve a Rubik’s Cube
26. Watch a space shuttle launch 
27. Get through the longleat Hedge Maze in England
28. Ride on the Singapore flyer
29. Party at Mardi Gras
30. Walk on the Great Wall of China
31. Be a movie extra
32. Visit the White House
33. Take professional nude photographs
34. Help deliver a baby
35. Go on a meditation retreat
36.  Go trapezing
37. Attend a masquerade ball
38. Donate blood
39.  Have the ultimate camping experience
40. Learn to tango

Let’s get to work!!

All work no play!

So here’s the deal… Saturday night, I get ready for what looks like a regular supper, drinks, dancing type of evening but was given a nice little twist. After picking a lovely outfit, doing hair and makeup to perfection I arrive to supper excited for the night to unfold. Once at supper, 2 new faces end up joining us for our meal; friends of friends. One all the friends, let’s call him M ends up sitting next to me. M is cute, nothing WOW but definitely cute.

With some wine already in my system, the flirting and charm that I so easily possess under the influence of some Vino takes over. I work my magic; the hair toss, the shoulder graze, the innocent smile, the eye contact… I use almost 99% of the tricks in my bag. M totally fell for each one, engaging me in a conversation all through supper. Asking me questions left and right. Feeding me one compliment after the other. Even getting excited when I tell him I’ll be joining him for post supper drinks. Once at the club, the magic goes down and M starts getting distracted my mini skirt here and cleavage over there and zones out. I pay less attention and work my magic on the dance floor showing him some interest by maintaining some total, as Vince Vaughn says it so well in “Wedding Crasher” eye F, he reciprocates… smiles…

AND then… when the night comes to an end…. LEAVES! Says goodbye and Nada, wello, nothing, klum!!!! No nice to meet you can I see you again, no can I get your number, no NOTHING! WTF?! Come on men… what is up with the mix signals!? What was the deal with all the work and no pay off?! The flirting, the smiling, the questions… all for nothing; really? How does that make any sense? I was left baffled and still until today, 3 days later still totally confused. Can I please understand what is up with men today? He seemed so interested but yet made no follow up approach. Are men afraid? Nervous? Or simply stupid?

In a total state of confusion and looking for enlightment.