Tallying up 2012!

A few hours left before another year passes us by. Here’s to what was 2012 with some great memories, some interesting decisions of good and many more poor decisions, and making the best out of both!

To name a few:

1. Deciding to pack my life up in four bags and shipping myself to Israel. – On most days can be seen as a poor decision although I see it as one of my best 2012 moments. It brought me with such interesting stories, some that will remain memories stored for a lifetime. Incredible new friendships, an exhausting but exhilarating job that allowed me to challenge myself and see the highs/lows and depths of my birth country of Israel. A new found independence and confidence in myself. Without Israel I wouldn’t have found myself – or at least parts of myself. I pushed myself to limits I didn’t even know I had. From great moments to my very first panic attack. All in all this was an excellently well spent 5 months in 2012 with many more highs than lows.

2. Deciding to repack my life in 3 bags (leaving all my damaged self in that 4th bag) and shipping myself all the way back to MTL. – On most days considered a smart decision but on days like December 26 with the nastiest snow storm to have hit Montreal in year not such a smart decision. Coming back home was the right thing to do. Being close to my family is by far the most important part of my return. Knowing that at the drop of a hat they are seconds away is not only reassuring but happiness all on its own. One day at a time I settled back in until I found my new groove. Got a new job, one that although is very boring on some days has thought me more than I could imagine thus far. Got a new apartment that I share with one of my very best friends. Hard decision to make to move in with a friend after my Israeli experience (which wasn’t ideal and/or happy all the time), but nevertheless so far so good!

3. Reconnecting with the X. – POOR!!! Let’s just say not my smartest decision. After a year and a half of working to move on, that one slight hesitation brought me back and nostalgia did not help my self growth. So now that that’s done with, have I learned my lesson?? Who knows!! Enough said about that one.

4. A LOT OF OTHER POOR DECISIONS CALLED MEN! Referring to but limiting it to Mr. G, Skype boy, IT, the secret one…

Just stupid decisions that I now know will most likely repeat themselves in 2013 – let’s face it; I have not rediscovered myself to the point where I can call myself a saint! So, here’s to 2013; wishful thinking to have it all figured out at some point within its 365 days… Maybe have won the lottery (which therefore means I need to start playing), finding the man of my dreams (which means I need to stop dreaming cause my expectations are just too damn high) and all the other great things one wishes for on this overrated but a great excuse to drink too much and add just one more poor decision before switching into 2013.

The year before the big 3-0!

I am one month short of my 29th. How flippin ridiculous is that???? What the heck happened to me in 28 years and 11 months?? How has time passed so fast?? What the F is going on?? No big deal right?! WRONG!!! All I keep thinking about is that I have 13 months left in my twenties.
OK so yes a lot has happened but still, I don’t feel and/or behave like a person who is 28 and 11 months! I had a complete different image of what life was going to be like a while back ago when I was fantasizing about my future self. I was to be married with a bunch of kids running around. But those fantasies all seemed so far away. Today, when I think of me being a mother I freak out. Who the heck would give me the responsibility of another life when I am still trying to figure out my own!!?? So my big 29th birthday decision is to make my last year in the twenties count. How… that’s what I need to figure out.